luthien-black

Yeah, I knew this day would come. My story on this website is, at least for now, finished. I'm pretty unhappy with the movement (or the lack of movement) around here, so I decided to take all my art out of here, for the sake of protecting my intelectual property from thieves (that insist to keep coming back no matter what I do). I was also very unhappy with people coming over just to request art, which is something absolutely horrid to do to an artist. Anyways, this place doesn't make sense to me anymore, that's why I'm leaving. I won't close the page permanently 'cause I might come back one day, I don't know. But for now, it's a farewell. Thank you for everything.

Yes, I'm taking a break from posting again... I decided I must take a new step into my artistic developement. I'm not sure of how to start it, but I'll use my free time to try to enhance my drawing skills. I'm seeing myself very frustrated lately, even tho my drawings look decent, they're not meeting my expectations as much as I wanted. I have some future plans on what start drawing... Maybe everything you've ever seen me doing through these 13 years will be changed for good... Anyways, I won't promise anything, but I'm up to face some changes in my art from now on. I just came here to let you guys aware of what's happening to me, since you guys follow me and support my art for such a long time. I'll be eternally grateful for each watcher I have, that's for sure. So, bear with me these next months... Soon something new and exciting will happen around here.

Hey guys, how are you doing? It's been a long while since I've interacted with you here through journal or even by posting art. Things are changing so much around here and those changes reflect on my way of dealing with art. I miss posting drawings everyday here, opening art trades and point commishes... But I can't ignore the fact that this don't feed my soul as much as it used to. Drawing just for fun, keeping OCs alive and all that doesn't make more sense for me right now, and that makes me very sad, 'cause the fond memories of the days I spent here are haunting me now and then. Add that to these changes, that are being massive and are taking 100% of my attention, focus and power of will and that's why I'm away for so long. Still, my heart won't let me leave you and this platform, and I'll definitely won't, 'cause it knows that dA and art are linked to my calling. So I just want you guys to be a bit patient and send your good thoughts and energies towards me (as I'm always sending them back to you). I know that this changing period is just a phase and soon I'll be back with my art here and everywhere else. Until then, stay safe, drink water and keep up with your stuff! Thank you very much for still supporting me on this journey. Love y'all!

Whoa, long time I don't post a journal entry eh? lol TBH, I've been disconnected with my art lately, and of course this disconnection reflects here, on dA. This website has been home for my art for almost 13 freaking years! There's not one day I don't access this website since then! Well, that's why I'm writing this journal instead of a status or a twitter post for this vent. Drawing is part of my history, it's part of who I am.

I remember drawing every single day, posting something every freaking day, I didn't mind that what I made was "good" or "bad", I used to post here regularly, even twice in a day sometimes. I used to make art trades with you guys all the time, make memes, have collabs, take requests, etc. and it was so much fun! I created my OCs, developed their stories (even tho most don't actually have much posts about them lol), I went batshit crazy with my ideas and I always had you guys backing me up.

But... I don't feel like that anymore. I do still have fun while I draw... The creative process and the coloring are always my favourite parts (mainly digitally). But thing is... Since the day I decided to take art classes and step up my drawing game I noticed that I was leaving behind all that fun, that "amateur" bright spirit that kept me hooked to this website. Of course I'm not even close of my artistic developement goals (I don't even think I actually have a goal lol), but I do feel that all that brightness and freshness and happiness of posting a brand new deviation has faded away.

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate and I am very thankful every day for each favourite and each watcher I get.

But I'm a grown up now. Even still enjoying cartoons and yaoi and all those good stuff, I'm with a more mature mindset, my point of view of things have changed. Have you noticed that I don't even draw Little Luthien anymore? Yes. I guess Little Luthien and I, Camila, have finally fusioned into one person, so I don't see reasons to draw her anymore.

What I want to say is that now I have new goals to reach, new things to do, other skills to explore. And I'm up to make things work for me and be everything I was born to be.

Lately drawing has been more of a "distraction" from my other activities. Art blocks are popping all the time and it's being a huge pain to start a drawing 'cause I'm always disappointed with most of my art, even tho I don't show it when I post them. I know I could make it better, I know I could be the next Sakimichan or whatever! But... My adulthood is here knocking me out of this fantasy world and saying "Hey bitch, you have bills to pay!". That's why I'm not as regular posting here as I used to be. That's why I don't do art trades as much as I used to. That's why I don't draw requests anymore.

Despite that, as I said before, drawing is part of me, of my history, of my soul. So no, I'm not going anywhere. I'm just saying that... Things will slow down around here.

But whenever I need a refreshment, a relief, an escape, I'll come back with a new drawing.